Though the weather was warm today (for winter), it was a dreary day. The sun was hiding and it was half-snowing, half-raining. It just felt blah, which in turn kind of makes me feel blah. I did get to sleep in today until 10 with Grayson since Jeff got up with Carter (who slept in until just after 9!), so though my night was absolute crap again, and I feel tired today, I don't feel dead tired.
Today I'm feeling like our life is in a rut. I feel this way every so often. I think it's just a by-product of having young kids (one of whom doesn't really sleep at night). I feel like every day during the week is virtually the same and every weekend is a repeat of the weekend before. We try to clean, watch cartoons and play with Carter, try to get some to-do's around the house done, sometimes we go shopping, etc. I feel antsy -- like I want to plan a trip or something. Just a weekend away would help break up the monotony of life, but I feel like I really can't do that until Grayson is sleeping better.
On this day last year, we were in Cuba celebrating our five-year wedding anniversary (which had taken place in the July prior). I just keep thinking of packing for that trip, sitting on a plane for hours watching saved up episodes of The Bachelor on my laptop, and reading The Silent Wife. I think that's making this sense that my/our life/lives are in a boring rut feel more intense.
But, this is life with an almost three month old who doesn't sleep well. So I need to figure out something in the meantime to cure my boredom that doesn't involve shopping.
But on to happier things.
1. I spent some time outside with Carter today, finally. I took him on the sled to the park by our house. There's a decent sized hill there, so we went tobogganing. The problem was this entire flippin' city is skating rink because it kind of rained today, but it's cold enough that it leaves a thin layer of ice on top of whatever surface it lands on, including snow. So the tobogganing was short lived - and comes with a funny story, but Grayson just woke up, so this blog post has officially been cut short :(
2. How much Carter so clearly adores Grayon is just one of the best things about my life. Truly. I never expected him to love Grayson so much - certainly not as much as he does. It's pretty heart-melting to see.
3. Chatting with my brother, Curtis, over Facebook messenger. We were hoping my parents would join in from New Zealand so we could do a family chat, but no luck, so him and I cracked each other up instead. It was good.
And now I'm going to bed. The night is not looking good at all, considering Grayson has already woken up once. That's a bad sign. A very bad sign mmmmk.
Okay. Night, folks. Sleep well. I will hate you for it, but sleep well.
I am NOT taking the time to read this post for mistakes. I am too tired and it's already cutting into my sleeping time.
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