Okay, it's Thursday. I can do this. One more day.
Sleep update - it still sucks. A lot. BUT, I did feel much better today. After we got both kids to bed last night, I went to the spare room downstairs and slept on that super comfy bed, in peace; that is to say, without Grayson's grunts, groans, cries and sleep noises that will wake me up, no matter how quiet they are. I am programmed to wake up to every single little noise he makes. I think it's the fault of my ovaries. It sucks, but I'd rather wake up if he's having an issue than not. Anyway, I slept from about 10-1 and Jeff attended to Grayson when he needed something, which - Jeff tells me - wasn't very often, so that's good that he's sleeping a little better.
I woke up on my own at 1 and heard Grayson crying on the sound monitor that Jeff had on upstairs. So I went up to bed and ended up nursing him around 2. From there, there were still a lot of wake ups, but getting an uninterrupted three hours hasn't happened for me in a very long time, so I already felt better in the night and felt much better throughout the day today. That is my first good thing for this day:
1. Not feeling nearly as tired as I felt yesterday. I'm still tired and I still only ended up getting six (?) hours of sleep (I think that's a fairly generous number), but I feel better, so I'm going to focus on that instead of the number of hours of sleep I got.
2. Grayson fell asleep on his own in his own bed today. It only lasted 20 minutes, but it still felt like a win, god dammit.
3. We got the first update from my parents from Australia today. I will spend the next month looking forward to their email updates and will live vicariously through their travel adventures, since, not only will I not be travelling for a very long time, but I'm not even leaving the house because of this ridiculously frigid weather.
Screw you, Saskatchewan winters. Screw you right in the face.
Okay, Friday. It's you and me, baby.
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