Today was really weird. And hard. I feel disillusioned with the my world. I feel as though nothing is what I thought it was. It sounds so dramatic, but it's a perfect account of how I feel. (Everyone is okay - safe and healthy, so don't panic.) But I'm not going to get into that right now.
I'm not in the most talkative or pleasant space, so this will be quick.
1. Kayleigh gave me the best hug today. She cuddled right into me and I rubbed her little back. It felt so good. She must have sensed I was a mom missing my own little people and knew I needed a little person hug. She's seriously just the sweetest little thing. I love her. I want to keep her.
2. Krystal and I went to Banff today. I have had the best weekend with her. I am so glad this trip worked out. It has been a very healing trip for both of us, I think, both as individuals and for our relationship. I think we both feel very lucky to have the other and that's something pretty amazing.
3. Krystal, Chris and the kids got me a birthday cake and a card, and Kessa made me hand lotion. They sang me happy birthday and everything. I got a group hug and lots of snuggles from the kids. It made me feel really special and I feel truly loved by this family. I feel a little like they are my family. I'm so lucky.
And tomorrow I get to see my little boys and my big boy. I pray I get home early enough to see the boys and put them to bed. To read them books and cuddle them. Wish me luck.
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