And by party, I mean change diapers, play dinosaurs, read books, and cuddle my kids to the point of annoying them. Essentially, I spent the day as I spend every other day that I'm not at work: fully engaged in the act of Motherhood.
I was one of those kids who wanted to be "a Mom" when I grew up. I wanted a career too, but having kids was a no-brainer for me. So, spending "my" day playing Mom was the perfect.
I'm feeling pretty blessed on my 35th birthday.
1. Jeff sent me this long email today. Sometimes we do that in place of buying an actual card. We do this because cards are stupidly expensive and also because we both like reading what the other person writes so much more than what the card says. In short: we're cheap and emotionally expressive :-) Back to Jeff's email: it was basically a love letter. I honestly can't believe I got him sometimes. We are so right for each other. I 100% believe (and he's said the same to/about me) that if one of us passed away or went crazy and left the other, I would never find anyone that would live up to the kind of husband and father he's been, and I would never find someone I loved as madly as I do him. I am so freaking lucky. He is it.
2. It was my typical day off, so, as I said above, I was at home with my boys. Because I didn't see them for 3 full days when I was in Calgary, I was pretty danged excited about having a day at home with them. There was no better way to spend my birthday. Carter slept at my parents', so we just had Gray to get to bed. Jeff tried to be the book reader for the night, but Gray said, "No. Mama!" Having your child want you -- choose you -- is a compliment like nothing else. It feels like a checkmark from the universe.
3. Having supper and birthday cake with my family. Have I mentioned how much I love my core group? I'm sure I haven't. ;-)
I just felt really lucky all day. Somehow, I have all of these wonderful people around me who love me a lot and they aren't an ordinary kind of wonderful: they are an extraordinary kind of wonderful. They are the kind of people I would seek out and chain to my life if I could and yet, somehow, they are as "attracted" to my spirit as I am to theirs. There is some miracle in that, and this truth is never lost on me.
Thank you, to my family, my friends, you people in my life who nourish my soul. You are everything.
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