Yesterday was not my day. Jeff and I were both tired. There were two overtired, whiney kids. The day was non-stop busy. But, today was a new day.
1. I missed my little guys and being at home today. I'm not going to lie, this is a bit surprising to me after how grouchy they were yesterday. Nonetheless, missing people feels good.
2. I am reminded so often that the family support I have in my life is unparalleled. I argued with myself about using that word because... unparalleled to what? To others' familial support systems? I can't really say that because I only have my family and no other point of comparison. But, I decided to use it anyway because they are really just exactly what I need, and how lucky am I to have that? Pretty lucky, I'd say.
3. Sleeping with the window open. The cool air makes me happy. And it makes me sleep better. That's one of the worst things about winter: not being able to open the window. It makes me feel too closed in, which gets my anxiety up in arms.
Tuesday, November 22, 2016
How the heck is it already the 22nd? I don't know. Let's not talk about it.
I'm struggling in certain areas of my life lately. Again, for someone who talks about everything, I can't really talk about them on here. Maybe eventually. But not now. And, I'll say that everything is really quite okay. These are small stressors compared to what many others face. I am very lucky. First world problems.
A few things brought me a great deal of peace today, though, after a night and day of feeling that knotted stomach feeling that stress often brings with it. And, in no particular order, here they are:
1. Working on a 3D puzzle with Carter before bed tonight. I love this little boy so much. And I love puzzles. So working on puzzles with him is pretty much the best way to spend an evening.
2. Grayson loves Christmas lights. He announces "LIGHTS! LIGHTS!" every time we pass by a house with them (and this year, thanks to this kick ass weather, there are many). He also throws in an impressed, "OOOOoooooo". I need to try to get it on video, but it might be hard in the dark. I can't wait until closer to Christmas when we can do a driving tour and drive around to all of the best lit houses in the city.
3. Both boys seem so into Christmas this year. Carter is excited for Santa Clause and the new stocking we bought him. Grayson knows what a Christmas tree is (and points them out when he sees them), and (somehow) he knows who Santa Clause is too. He even knows the word Christmas. We will set up our tree this weekend, and I hope they both enjoy it as much as I think they will. (Expectations, Amber...)
I just feel like this year, we'll have two excited boys for Christmas and presents and playing with cousins. I waited years for Christmases like this. (Expectations, Amber...)
4. I had a long, hot bath tonight. It was lovely. Best decision of life. I may or may not have gotten in the bath with my bra on...
5. Brother Curtis took me out for lunch. I love that guy. He gives the best advice. Seriously. He's so logical, without being robotically unemotional. He's supportive, but will still tell you what you need to hear. He's just a wise person. He could put my therapist out of business... not that he'd want to.
And with that, it's 11:20 p.m. and, once again, I am in bed two hours later than I said I would be. Such is life.
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