1. Are ya'll sick of hearing me say I had a productive day at work? Well, too bad! I did and I'm happy about it! The boys also had another good day at the new babysitter's, which makes this Mama very happy.
2. Talking with my wifey on the phone. We sometimes say the exact same thing at the exact same time. She sounded so happy and light tonight and that made me happy. Earlier today, she also told me that she bought me something today and then sent me this picture -->
Pat, my other soul mate (I have three 😉) has been saying these words to me for a while now: "all actions rooted in love." While I understood the words and their meaning, I only really connected with them recently - since talking to Krystal again.
Krystal and I had a separation that lasted nearly two years. When I heard she was going through some difficult times, I decided to reach out. I had no idea if she would still have anger with me, or what kind of response - if any - I would get, but when debating whether or not to send her an email, I first had to figure out, what were my possible actions and what were their corresponding motivations?
Sending her the email would be an act motivated by love. I knew there was a possibility that she wouldn't react positively, but decided that didn't matter. I would put love and support out there, even in the smallest dose, and if she decided not to take it, or if she reacted with anger, that was her choice; but my act would be motivated by love. If she was receptive to it, than that's a great thing and, maybe, it's because she needed the support I was offering in that moment.
When I thought about not sending the message, I asked myself what my motivated my lack of action. Those reasons were base: anger and resentment at something that happened two years ago.
So, do I follow through with an act driven by love or with a lack of action, driven by anger and resentment. It was really only in this moment that I fully realized that as long as my act -- any act --was motivated by love, I should carry through with it.
It doesn't matter how the person on the receiving end reacts: do everything in love. We all have motivations for our actions and if, before proceeding, everyone asked themselves what the act was rooted in, and only moved forward with acts rooted in love, imagine what the world would be like. We would have no war, we would have no hate. So, now, because of Krystal, I get it. And, clearly, I sent the email. And now, here we are. And, I mean - seriously - how lucky am I to be loved by her?! ❤
3. Tonight, Pat and I were supposed to go to yoga together and possibly for coffee afterwards. I was just totally up front with her and said that this deep freeze known to some as "outside" just made me want to hibernate at home. She agreed and we decided together to wait until next week when, hopefully, this terrible cold snap and would break. I miss horribly and love her immensely, but appreciate that I can be honest and tell her that all I really want to do is go home and hide under a blanket. And do you know how that conversation ended? It ended how all of our conversations end: in an argument over who loves who more.💓
#SOFREAKINGLUCKY
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