DAY 114 - Sunday, January 15, 2017 - The Laziest Sunday

Hello.

I hope you imagined me saying that like a very happy high person; a slow smile spreading across my face; my eyelids, blinking very slowly - like those of a cat enjoying the hell out of a good heavy petting session; my voice, milky, and my words slow and drawn out.

I've never been high, so I actually have no idea whatsoever what I would be like, but that's how I imagine myself. Loose in physical body -- like a rag doll. My imagining of it sure does sound nice. It sounds relaxing and like the exact opposite of the constant state of tension I often find myself in. I will never try it, but that's what I imagine it to be like.

That was a very long digression, but I found writing it relaxing.

We had a wonderful day. It was my sleep-in day (always nice), and - again - I haven't left the house today. For me, not leaving the house often is often the marker of a good day.

A few days back I read this blog post about the importance of a morning routine and how much it can help to relieve anxiety. The author listed journaling as one of the things to be added to the routine. The author gave something of a guide to help people come up with their three things:

1. Person — I write one thing about my fiancé that I am grateful for every morning. But it could be anyone for you and probably helps if you change it every day to realize how many people you are grateful for.
2. Small object close by — The wind blowing on your face, the warmth of the coffee mug, the silence of your bedroom. This is a stoic practice to realize that even if everything you owned were taken from you their are still small pleasures in life.
3. Something I would miss if it were gone — running water, heat, the ability to run, etc.

I found the guide interesting and thought I would use it for today's post since, I feel like I often repeat my good things. It must be so boring to read. For those of you that actually read them nearly all the time, I honestly have no idea why you do.

Anyway, here is my list, as per the guide above, and a few extras:

1. Jeff. I feel like I could write and write and write about him and it might all come out in cliches and would just leave everyone rolling their eyes. Also, I think that I could write this really long post and I would still fail to convey how in love with him I am, how much I appreciate the marriage that we have and the life we have built, and how much he makes every part of my life - big and small - better... happier. So, I'll just leave it at that. And also, he's the best hugger.

2. Yesterday, in our journey into the great, big world, we bought a humidifier. Not for when you're sick, but more to decrease the dryness that winter has gifted our home. It's in our room now to try to increase the humidity in the back of the house. The fan in it creates the most pleasant white noise and is making me very much look forward to sleeping tonight.

3. Something I would miss if it was gone: my laptop. Jeff bought me this Chromebook (on which I am currently typing) years ago and I love it for typing, blogging, social media-ing.

4. When I walked into our room to go to bed, I saw this:

It reminded me that this afternoon, when I wasn't feeling particularly stellar, I came to hang out in bed. Carter ended up in here with me, playing on the tablet and soon, Gray found his way to us as well. I told him to bring me some books to read to him, which he did and, as promised, I read.

What is it about booked sprawled across my bed that screams happiness, domestic bliss, the perfect Saturday, and the perfect life? I don't know, but it did.

5. Grayson was the world's happiest two-year-old today. He was affectionate, and playful, and busy, and funny, and sweet.

6. Watching Carter sit on his Dad's lap to play a game tonight and then following his dad out to the garage to get something done. *sigh* He's such a big boy already. I just think of him and sigh internally. He really is my sweet boy.

How to end this? Oh, I know!
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THE END.