Happy Monday, People.
I don't even really know where to begin this post. I am not normally one ... seriously, I can't even come up with the words to accurately express how I'm feeling. Okay, let's start over.
I am going to take a break from social media. Facebook, specifically. I do still have to be on it for work, but in terms of my own Facebook, I feel like I need to check out.
I will keep posting Instagram pictures of my cute kids and sharing those to Facebook, and I will continue to correspond with people through Facebook's messages, but I need to step away from my news feed for a bit. Scrolling in the last little bit has left me feeling gross. I just don't know what other word to use. Actually, I can think of many other words to use: disappointed, frustrated, sad, defeated, disillusioned. I feel like I need an effing shower.
I 100% know that "checking out" isn't the answer, but I need a rest from all of the Trump stuff that's plastered all over my news feed (and my own Facebook page). I need to disengage from it for a bit. I need to stop reading long conversation threads, at the heart of which men (typically) are putting air quotes around the words "male privilege", making fun of the women's' marches (how was anyone was anything but inspired?!), and announcing support for Trump - not only in his policies, but in his treatment of... well... everyone who isn't white and rich and male.
I keep trying to type out a sentence to explain myself or talk about how I feel and, for nearly the first time in my life, I can't seem to do it. Even this sentence was typed out three times, deleted and now, here we are, and it still doesn't at all hit the mark in terms of what I'm trying to say.
Maybe that's because I need to not say anything for a change.
If you want to send me something, send it via email (on Facebook) or text and keep it light: you know, kittens chasing their own tails and such.
I'm going to leave it at that and just move on to my three good things.
1. I had a really nice conversation with our previous babysitter today. She's a really lovely person and it was great talking to her. I am hoping to sneak over to her house on Wednesday for a quick coffee and visit with the boys. Even though I think moving to a new sitter was the right move for us, I do miss Judy (prev sitter), so I'm looking forward to seeing her.
2. Grayson had gymnastics tonight. He's so fun to watch. He smiles like a crazy man the whole time. Carter plays in the play structure during Gray's 1/2 hour class. Afterwards, my dad gets both of them a treat and, this time, they both picked these marshmallows, dipped in some sort of icing and semi-covered in sprinkles. Gray kept saying "oooo" in a really high pitched voice every time he took a bite; like this thing was so danged good, he needed a sound effect to accompany the bite.
3. Laying on the couch and watching a show with Jeff after the kids went to bed. The show was depressing as all get out, but hanging out with my main man was pretty awesome.
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