2. Tonight, I did dick all. I sat my lazy ass on the couch and putzed (there's that word again) around on Facebook and the interwebs. And I wrote this blog. I was also hoping to do some journalling for my therapy appointment on Wednesday (I will explain this in another post) and read through some of my OCD workbook, but I'm dead tired and it's already 9:30, and I should spend a half an hour doing some actual work from home to ease up my week. AND I should go to bed at 8:00 p.m. one night. For real. I need to catch up on sleep (who doesn't? You? Then we can't be friends.). And it's already 9:30. Yes, I know I said this twice, but it bears repeating.
3. Doing a puzzle with Carter tonight before bed. He did a 48-piece all by himself and pretty quickly. This is my kid FO SHO. I freaking love that he loves puzzles and I fantasize about he and I drinking tea and doing puzzles when he's older (he will probably actually cringe at the thought when he's older, but a gal can dream, can't she?). I love puzzles. Like, LOVE LOVE puzzles. I don't do them because I don't really have anywhere in the house to store the partially completed puzzle. This makes me sad because the actual thought, "maybe I'll do a puzzle after the kids go to bed..." makes me happy. Just the thought. Yes, I know, I'm super cool. Hip, if you will.
4. We ran into my grandparents at the mall today and I snapped this picture of Grayson taking my grandpa on a walk. This melts my heart. Like, dripping with love. Well... I take that back. Too far. That sounds weird. And Freudian. Ya'll knew what I meant. Moving on.5. I actually had a tough afternoon. I don't know why. Well, that's only half true. I do sort of have some idea, but I'm not going to get into that here. I'm a really, really open person, but I do have to keep some cards close to my chest, and these are those cards. I'll say that I felt weird today. I felt like that awkward person who always does and says the wrong thing. I felt embarrassed about how I do things -- how much I say. That is who I am, but sometimes, it's a quality about myself that even I find annoying. I didn't feel like a winner today. Does everyone feel like a winner every single day? No, likely not. Today, though, I just felt particularly aware of my awkward self.
Carter could tell I was low and asked me, "Are you sad today, mom?" I said, "yeah, a little," and he told me I was cute and then gave me a hug and said, "there, now you won't be sad for the rest of the day." He continued to check in for the next hour are so. "Are you still sad, mom?" He's seriously such a sweet little boy. I hope he stays this thoughtful, sympathetic, and worried about how other people feel, and what he can do to make them feel happy, into his adulthood.
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